Job as a working mother isn't easy.
From role as daughter+wife to daughter+wife+mother! The responsibilities increased exponentially.
In the past, I am mainly stressed with
- Why am I not earning enough (Refused to accept the fact that I am not saving enough)
- Why am I gaining weight even though I am not eating that much
- Why is my facial complexion looks dull
- Why is my stamina worst as compared to the previous cardio class
- Why isn't my menses coming on time (self-induced stress)
- I need to reach home at 8pm for a launch if not I will be able to get the dress I'm eyeing on at a particular e-store (I'm a typical blogshop shopper addict)
Now, with the above still applicable, I'm ALSO stressed with
- Why is Emme resisting tummy time
- Why is Emme putting on weight so rapidly
- Why is Emme constipating
- Why is Emme unable to roll over
- Why is Emme not sleeping on her side
- Why is Emme not responding to me
- Will Emme grows/develops slower than her peers
- Am I a dispensable mother to Emme (constant feel that I am not spending enough time with her)
- and list goes on...
Practically, I'm stressed with preparing my child to meet her endless milestones and day to day behaviors in life.
Is it only me that is over-concerned with our child's development? Even though I consciously understand that every baby grows differently and at different pace, I will still compare our baby with her peers, cos' I AM KIASU! I just don't want Emme to lose out when she grows up. Who don't want their kids to shine right?
Knowing that it is Emme's 6th month assessment with her paediatric next week, I flipped to the checklist in her health booklet and self assessed her first. 职业妈妈病. And I started to panic I know that she will be assessed with rolling over. See, all these are self-induced stress!
I realised that all these can't go on, my loved ones will be the first to feel the impact with my negativity. I thus decided to do some self reflections during the weekend since our schedule was rather light.
For Myself
- Shed the +3kg (sometimes +4kg) that I have gained from pregnancy healthily
- Plan out future for the family (insurances, accomodation, financial and other aspects)
- Save more for the rainy days
- Know more about make-up
- Gain back my stamina for long distance run
For Emme
- Spend more quality time with her
- Bring her for swim/spa (I will try with weekly)
- Engage more activities with her to meet future milestones (next: Taking Solid Food! EXCITING!)
For the Family
- Spend more time with them
- Listen to them more (mainly domestic issues, since I'm considered the sole bread winner?)
- Plan the first oversea trip (I need to make passports for them first!!)
For the Husband
- More couple times together
- More attention to you (most times and effort are on Emme nowadays, I confessed)
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Labels: Motherhood, Parenting, Weekend Reflections
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