Sigh sigh. It was since so long my last entry being contributed to my worldfullofliars.
It was the “prime” of my life. I went through a lot of obstacles. According to my horoscope (courtesy of I-weekly and u-magazine), both state that 我有人缘. I am grounding myself at home. I grounded myself for the past week. I stepped out of home only today.
Face allergy, diarrhea, lethargic-ness, fast-pace of heart pumps, headaches, and breakdown become part and parcel of my life.
During the thirteen week of the academic calendar, my “bud” in school quitted school. I was feeling despair. I went drinking, I know I am torturing myself to a devastated state, but at least I did ease my temporary pain. Losing someone that is important in an unfamiliar environment hurts. That’s the reason I does treasure people around me. I treasure Dumbo, Elaina and those of my supposed clique in school. I can’t imagine what will happen in the future.
-me and janet midst of drinking- Speaking about dumbo, he changed somehow and somewhat during the exam period. I can’t deny that I really feel comfortable with his presence, his witty actions and etc. He was my “fling” in school. I might say out something that should be kept as a secret. But I told him out of fear. Seriously hope that it will not sour the friendship. The time we actually know each other is scarce, which the mid of September during my first trip out of Singapore, further from Sentosa! The feeling of being excited yet cannot show my true colors make me laugh. Ha. I am a pure mountain tortoise. The AUTHENTIC TORTOISE. Then we talked and chatted in real life. School together and etc. He become my essential bud in life.  -Dumbo and i- Elaina, my marketing classmate, was someone not from my course too. Ha. We mixed well and become “talk cock” bud. We bought fries and iced cappuccino into the lecture theatre during marketing lecture. We are invincible! During the tutorial, we will ended criticizing the other teammates’ accent and dressing while presentation. I am bad. That’s why I have my retribution, i.e. I don’t know how to do the marketing exam paper.
Today was the first time that I saw my other marketing classmate controlling tears. He was a JC graduate. He was really feeling so down after the paper. I stayed in school, chatting with Elaina. Initially, we were discussing and predicting the marks that we could have scored in the paper. Then, we changed to boy-girl relationship.
That triggers my point of view again. The common point between me and Elaina is that we aren’t the girl-next-door type. We talked loudly like a guy, act like a guy. We aren’t the “target market” of the man-dominant segment. Hahaha. Chim? I am still suffering from marketing hangover. =( I felt so weird when I stepped into the university life. The fashion sense of the majority student in my division is a huge contrast from mine. I am the way I am, I will not change for the environment. The environment has to adapt to me. I had a very tiny weeny tattoo. So what? Tattoo means nothing nowadays. Moreover, it is so small! I have to confess that I look like a frequent clubber. But the real fact was that I wasn’t one. I need sleep. But after graduating from the polytechnic things changed. I no sleep as much as I used to. I need to earn allowance for my high standard of living. I have countless worries. I still stick to my logic, I am not who I look, I am who I am! guys tend to look for pure jane nowadays. The real reason is they are gullible which means easily hooked in a negative term. Heard so much, I really detest guys. I has to come clean that I do lack of love sometimes, who doesn’t! I need a shoulder that belong to me when I am feeling low. But I am not at the stage of being desperate. I admit that I do miss my ex-boyfriend though he is such a bastard. I shall let time heal everything. And let time make me forget him and leave the rest to fate. Coming to think of it, I am attracted to decent looking guy with specs but not too nern behavior. The idiot has a decent look but he was a ex-gangster. Freak. Nvm. That was my weak point. Freak again. I shall continue my ranting after my exam. End here.
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