Love relationship and etc. Friends are facing problems. I have this buddy who was so troubled with his relationship. I can sensed that he is facing problems. but the bad habit of his is covering him up, ie escaping from the reality. Seriously hate this, but i did this as well in the past.
I lost contact with the asshole after i wanted only 100 bucks back from him. HE is a JERK! i initiated to remain as friends, becos i dun wan this to be so bad. but in the end, we are strangers. i lost a few ks in the process, treat as my punishment. find no boyfriend that are bookie, gangster or anything that involve the danger of money. i dun deny i yearn someone to love and care for me, i lost my love. I am in a relationship that i was being loved less than 30%. A relationship that i used my hand to clap most of the time. love that are on and off. love that lack of communication. love that are so pretentious. i am like a jian bu de guang gf of him when i think back. he never bring me to meet his friend. thus i chose not to bring him to show him mine and on top of that, he never agreed to mit my fren. we are always living in the dark side. i nv shop with him despite the 1 year plus relationship. the most we do is to watch movie. the rest of the time is i compromise, go to his bloody house and acc him.
sometimes being single is good, but i am still a normal lady (thou i always proclaimed that i am a les) Theres are something that you cant do it with a friend. hold a friend hand, kiss a friend, bite a friend, hug a friend? i think now i only have my PTBF, janet ong pian pian. i held her hand, bite her but i yet to kiss her, shall try one day. but i kissed my other friend. hahaha. but the feeling is so very different. But being into any relationship is such a bet. you will never know the outcome. you will never know whether your partner will or will not stray. you will never know wad happen in the future. and worst thing, one dun have supernatural power to read one's mind, for instance, he may used his bloody phone to confess to you that he love you with his whole heart. but the next month after playing with you for how many donkeys day, month or even years, he went missing and come back to you with a break up mails. how wonderful that it. wad a flawless lie in the start.
work sucks. more and more people wanted to go. although i am not very close to those guys at my work place, we clicked together and united. i am not an ah lian but i do look after my friends, and some guys are gangster which they jiang yi qi. i will miss them.
school stressing me up too. logic design, java, mathematics, and all, i am like in the situation they recognise me whereas that are strangers to me. i wanted to study but the motivation is dying. wrong things are happening to me. argh.
binged during work. double sucks. my diet plan is gone! bull shit. i ate fries non stop and calamari and soft shell crab. i drank 7-up free flow. i eat a fresh oyster. hahhaha thats nice i cant deny it. then i ate so many thingy. chocolate drink , soursop yogurt, bao, pandan cake and rolls. hahaha... my calories are counting and accumulating. i shall pour the whole bottle of laxative into my mouth and waiting to go toilet.
my contact lens turned hare wired! it spoilt and i went to buy another one. so expensive. the worst thing is not getting any better. waste money. my eyes hurt. i cant open well. and i am so very scared. wad if i went blind one daY? sigh!
time check it is 12.11am! i havent bathe or do my marketing. shall continue tml.
